Know yourself

These last forty years have been an exploration with every experience showing me the choice, even though I was unaware. Every interaction triggered me to explore a belief that kept me just out of touch with my core frequency. This reaching towards the preferred experience is how I observed the world for the last forty-three years, on the return to the source.  Sometimes I did it through escape, sometimes through battle, sometimes, through surrender, but every choice was perfect, even in my judgment.

But this last year opened a whole new level of exploration. The exploration of myself, through separation, finally expanded into the experience and perspective of my wholeness. In its most authentic essence, it was the hero’s journey.  I began entering this incarnation in the frequency of lack, the frequency of unworthiness, and quickly learned to please others to determine who I was through the roles they required me to play to survive.

I spent the last forty-three years seeking on the outside. Even in meditation, my journeys from that current perspective took me outside of myself. I had learned to work this way.  To find what opened me to new experiences and perspectives shifting myself ever so slightly within by seeking without. Working through poverty, self-worth, and even healing my disease of not-enough-ness, all just enough to feel the slight expansion.  Each slight expansion discovered through techniques seeking from the outside-in applied through an illusion of inside out. I believed if I could just get to this one practice or tool, I could “fix” myself. If I chanted, meditated, or did enough yoga, I would heal my frequencies and change my experience. If I took this class or went on this guided adventure or participated in this group, followed the words of some proclaimed “ascended master,” I would become the wholeness I sought to feel.  Those glimpses into feeling temporary unconditional love and wholeness that each experience provided and the beauty of the new dimensional perspective experiences I had visited and felt through each practice now had become my driving force. I believed the next practice or piece of information would allow me to return to that space. 

Suddenly this last year, beginning sometime in spring and coming to a head at the end of June 2019, I began to embody the memory of who I AM.  The hero’s journey seeking and achieving on the outside, I finally got a real glimpse it was within me all along.  EVERYTHING I experience is because there is a match to it within me and my state of being.  So this last year I have been learning to know and LOVE myself. To reattach and trust my source consciousness expressed and experienced through me.  And not just here and now, but across time and space, and space and time, through ALL realms.

Through self-discovery and inner exploration, I was able to shift my reality.  A metamorphosis of change that always existed within is present in my physical reality.  My feeling of separation within had created a separation within my world.  But now, my wholeness continues to create a wholeness and knowing in my reality that has shifted my experience.  The wholeness was already there, but a set of beliefs allowed a different experience.  Once I returned to my knowing and removed these beliefs, what I had been seeking was already there.

There is nothing outside of you.  What we see and experience is a reflection from within.  Everything you need already resides within you.  The universe, every akashic record, every psychic insight is all available to you; you do not need to seek it outside of yourself.  The journey to this space is sometimes seeking on the outside to arrive.  And that is okay.  Each experience is triggering you to remember who you are through experience.  That is the game.

Entering this space of experience, knowing your wholeness, no longer operating in a separated perspective begins with love.  It begins with loving yourself like never before and exploring yourself like never before.  For me, I had to walk away from those who would talk down to me, always telling me I was doing this wrong or that wrong.  Or the “friend” who told me I wasn’t connected to source the “right” way.  These were my beliefs being created in my reality through my environments, experiencing myself through individuals with a matching belief.  MY reality reflected those who did not think I was enough because I did not think I was enough.  Or those who judged me with a TON of assumptions and ZERO communication, because I judged myself, assuming I was wrong or wounded and “bad,” and never communicated with myself to understand my divinity and knowing that I AM always perfect.

You see, it isn’t personal; I do not judge them; I just see and know the match to me. Those relationships are only reflecting their beliefs about themselves, of which I was also a match.  And by shifting my belief, those who held that the previous perspective has no place in my life. I do not love myself if I surround myself with people who are always telling me how I do not measure up.

I made a choice to surround myself with those who will tell me EVERYTHING IS possible.  I surround myself with those who will celebrate us without judgment or criticism of the journey—beings who celebrate my love and share my excitement about expansion and transformation.  Those who are open to letting go of the old beliefs, ready to create the new—no more boxes, and labels, and, most importantly, open to recognizing the agreements with a willingness for the new.

 I finally found unconditional love within myself, and so am creating more of that in my reality.  The energy of pure source consciousness permeates my every cell because I AM source creating the experience. I am beginning to see and experience what was always there; it was just buried beneath a bunch of beliefs and agreements.

So, I will leave you with this song, that continues to play and is our current experience, because it is my experience—discovering the beauty of what was always present.  Know yourself.

Every inch of me is trembling                                      
But not from the cold
Something is familiar
Like a dream I can reach but not quite hold
I can sense you there
Like a friend I’ve always known
I’m arriving
And it feels like I am home

I have always been a fortress
Cold secrets deep inside
You have secrets, too
But you don’t have to hide

Show yourself
I’m dying to meet you
Show yourself
It’s your turn
Are you the one I’ve been looking for
All of my life?
Show yourself
I’m ready to learn

Ah ah ah ah

Ah ah ah ah ah

I’ve never felt so certain
All my life I’ve been torn
But I’m here for a reason
Could it be the reason I was born?
I have always been so different
Normal rules did not apply
Is this the day?
Are you the way
I finally find out why?

Show yourself
I’m no longer trembling
Here I am
I’ve come so far
You are the answer I’ve waited for
All of my life
Oh, show yourself
Let me see who you are

Come to me now
Open your door
Don’t make me wait
One moment more
Oh, come to me now
Open your door
Don’t make me wait
One moment more

Where the north wind meets the sea

Ah ah ah ah

There’s a river

Ah ah ah ah

Full of memory

Come, my darling, homeward bound

I am found

Show yourself
Step into your power
Throw yourself
Into something new

You are the one you’ve been waiting for

All of my life

All of your life

Oh, show yourself

Ah ah ah

Ah ah ah

Ah ah ah

Songwriters: Kristen Anderson-Lopez / Robert Lopez

Show Yourself lyrics © Walt Disney Music Company

If someone tells you that you are not enough, remember to love them, they are a reflection of you.  By loving them, you love you.  When we know who we are, there is nothing anyone can say to take us away from that. Give them love, because ultimately they are a reflection of you and it is ALL perfect in this now. 

Published by onefacet

I am consciousness experiencing. Exploring and journeying through this reality while always creating and living the best version of myself, the one I prefer.

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